Dad finally said.....

This afternoon, dad and mom stopped by Hsinchu by high speed rail. After I picked them up, we went straight to Nanliao harbor.

There we visited the seafood market and bought some fresh boiled squids, just like the days we had when were in Tongkong, Pengton, where we used to shop and buy fresh fish to cook soup, my favorite. Then, we sat by the bank, enjoying the wind and a little bit of sunset while eating the squids. "It's really delicious. What's more, the place is even better than Tongkong," dad exclaimed. "Of course, it's Hsinchu, which the government collected the most taxes from," I replied naughtily. But, indeed, the squids were really tasty.

Later, we sat at a round table for mom to enjoy a cup of Cappuccino while dad was taking picture for three of us from different angles. Three of us sat for a while, eyes gazing at seagulls in the sky.

"Well, do you have a boy friend now?" Dad asked.

"...No." I replied. But I really wanted to jump into a hole for this question.

"How about the one you mentioned years ago?" He finally remembered him.

"Well, we were busy at one time and we lost contact." I didn't tell the truth for fear of tears dropping.

"......" Dad seemed to have some questions but they just stopped in his mouth.

"Actually, I won't disapprove of anyone you want to marry, as long as you think clearly before you say you do. And I really want you to have a happy life. You need to lead the life yourself. You need to choose the one by yourself." Dad said.

Well, I think, if he said this two years ago, I might have told him that I had made my decision. But now, I can't make any decision. "I'm afraid that the one I choose will change in the future or he will be unfaithful to me in the future." That's what I think about men. There in the world is no man who will treat me as my father did to me. In my heart, I told my mom, "Mom, you're so lucky to have dad. He did a lot for our family and for you though you two sometimes fought. And I don't know whether I can find a man like him in the future. Your daughter is not as lucky as you."

Can I really find such a man? I doubt it!


20:23 April 29, 2007