Mom Finally asked....

Tonight when I was watching TV in the living room, mom came watch with me. Suddenly, she asked a question that I wouldn't like to answer the moment but would have liked to answer half a year ago.

"How's your boyfriend?", she asked.

My mind was blank, thinking what I was going to asnwer her. "Well, it has been a long time that we haven't contacted each other."

She got nervous, "So is there anyone who introduces somebody to you?"

"Well, I can make a living myself. It's ok to be single", I replied, heart breaking again. Then, I escaped to my room.

It has been almost five months since that happened. Do I feel better now? I don't know. But whenever someone asks about him, my heart sinks and hurts. I still have no idea about what I have done wrong. I still feel that I was deserted. And he seems not to come back. I don't know the reason. He seems to be a total stranger to me. The one who used to love me so much, but now says things hurting me. Maybe he would never thought to do this when we first met and decided to be together.

I still remember we promised each other to walk and face our future together. We promised not to hurt each other again. But the truth is hurting me severely. That's why I would never trust any men again.


22:17 September 2, 2006