Lack of confidence. And passion?

I was invited to observe a teaching demonstration presented by one of the internteachers this morning.

After seeing her demonstration, I was totally enchanted with the way she taught students. Her passion, humor, explanation along with the interaction with students were amazing. How I wish I could have the passtion like her! Since then, I kept questioning myself: am I suitable for the career of teaching? Can I really be a teacher from whom students can learn a lot? Can I make my every explanation understood by each one of the students in my class? Whenever there is a test, I can always find some mistakes made by students, which I had explained before the tests. How sad and disappointed I was when seeing students keep making the same mistakes they had learned before! Whose mistake was it? Mine? Or the students'? Whenever I think about this, I always ask myself: was it because of me? I even once thought of quitting the job because I couldn't make my students study harder, nor could I make each of my students intake or acquire everything I had taught them. This gradually made me lack of confidence in teaching. However, after seeing her teaching demonstration, maybe I sould find my passion back and ponder more about different teaching methods to motivate students' learning desire.

21:25 November 16, 2005.